[Joe's told him over and over that it's fine, they're still fine. Everything is good, nothing is wrong, but he keeps telling himself it is. Everything is wrong now. It's all wrong.

If he'd just listened in the beginning it wouldn't be this way... right? Even though Joe can't see it, he's shaking his head as he starts to talk.]

But why? Why'd you want to put up with someone like me? I'm just some kid who's acting mental about everything over and over and I keep doing this--

[He feels like Joe puts up with so much from him, he doesn't get why. Lot of other people wouldn't want to deal with this shit and he wouldn't blame them.]

I want things to be like they were.

[Before he gave too much of a shit, before it was more than just liking Joe, before he thought his feelings were a bad thing.]